“And above all,
watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you,
because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places.
Those who don't believe in magic will never find it.”
― Roald Dahl

Sunday, July 7, 2013

A year of Kane

A year has passed since I said goodbye to this amazing creature.


The time passed with much difficulty and not one day went by without tears.
Pain doesn't go away, but now his silly antics can be discussed with more
laughter than sorrow.
Sometimes I swear I can hear his contented sigh in the hallway:)
 The days that felt like a bad dream are gone. 

I loved him with all my heart and at first I swore I'd never do that again,
No more dogs, the hurt is too immense.

Then I read this quote:

"Unlike some people who have experienced the loss of an animal, I did not believe, even for a moment, that I would never get another. I did know full well that there were just too many animals out there in need of homes for me to take what I have always regarded as the self-indulgent road of saying the heartbreak of the loss of an animal was too much ever to want to go through with it again.
To me, such an admission brought up the far more powerful admission that all the wonderful times you had with your animal were not worth the unhappiness at the end."
(Cleveland Amory)

Then I thought,  well maybe in a few years, like four or five,  maybe then I'll get another.

 Six weeks ago our neighbor told me his dog had a litter of 10 puppies that he wasn't sure 
he'd be able to find homes for, he only wanted to keep the darker colored ones
 since they look like the mother.
I told him I'd think it over. 
Ha! I didn't stand a chance!
 I made the decision as soon as I held him.

SO.... now I'd like to introduce
Magnus Kane 

He still drinks from a bottle..
 And he's an awesome lump with amazing puppy breath!
My heart is full & I'm grateful for another chance 
to love and be loved by another furry friend.

I miss my big pup, I always will.
He'll never be forgotten.
The following song reminds me of him.

"The Party"

You’re like a party somebody threw me
You taste like birthday
You look like New Years
You’re like a big parade through town
You leave such a mess but you’re so fun

Tell all the neighbors to start knocking down walls
To grab their guitars and run out to the hall
And we’re coming out right along to sing them my new song

For every place there is a bus
That’ll take you where you must
Start counting all your money and friends before you come back again

For every road we can retrace
For every memory we can’t face
For every name that’s been erased
Let’s have another round
May I propose a little toast?
For all the ones who hurt the most
For all the friends that we have lost

Let’s give them one more round of applause
But you’re like a party somebody threw me
You taste like birthday
You look like New Year
You’re like a big parade through town
That leaves such a mess but you’re so fun


  1. Wish you happiness and wonderful memory making loving times with Magnus Kane. Each of you is fortunate to have the other. Blessings, Oma Linda

  2. What a touching story, and I know your pain. It's the happy memories we keep in our hearts that keep our fur friends with us!
    Your new little addition is so precious and I'm sure he'll soon come to know what an amazing family and home he's been blessed with!

  3. What a beautiful tribute to Kane!
    I am so happy to hear about his wonderful life with you. And now Magnus Kane is here with you and new wonderful memories are already being made : )
    He is such a cutie!
    Love your art dog! Perfection!

  4. Oh dear....your story, that quote....I have to admit, I'm too chicken to ever have an animal. All the pets I've ever had either ran away or were given away due to moving or the death of my parents (I was living very far away from my home). My father's stories about the loss of his dog always struck deeply in my heart, and I could not bear the pain!

    Your big boy Kane IS beautiful, and the joy he left you is measured in the span of YOUR LIFE'S HISTORY, so all of the people AND animals that contribute to your life are of great value.

    NOW as for little Maximus Kane....OMG he is just as precious as can be! AND TO TOP IT OFF....that darling art rendition of Kane is perfect...just PERFECT! Dear one, thank you for coming to visit ! PEACE to you always, Anita

  5. I read your comment today. Just had to visit your site ... it's been so hard for me to check out the blogs but today I checked out yours ... I'm still weeping ... we love our furry family so much don't we....I have to believe that we all will be united we we pass on to paradise and oh, such a wonderful welcome we will have. I can see your buddy Kane just waiting to see you and he's so happy you have included another in your furry family. Love and Hugs, always,

  6. Hi Marfi:)

    This is a beautiful and touching story.
    And, what a beautiful new baby you have. I love his name :)

    I have missed you too.

  7. You will never forget your lovely furry friend but I am so glad you have now got a new puppy. You obviously have loads of love to give him. I am the same, my 'new' puppy is now 13 months old and a loveable little rogue! xx

  8. What a beautiful tribute to Kane and I so understand the healing and loss. Each pet is unique and we can never replace the love or feelings we had - but when we bring a new pet in they will bring new unique qualities and bless our lives differently. You will find joy in your new pup and what a blessing he too shall be.

    P.S. My Grandpup is also named "Kane" but he is an English Bull Terrier.

  9. He is adorable! When both of my pups passed away within a week of each other I thought my heart would never be repaired. I "planned" on not getting another pup for a long time....but I didn't last but a few months....my house was too quiet....I couldn't stand it.

  10. Pitter pat goes my heart, too....
    You are such a wonderful mama...full of love and compassion and kindness...

    This little guy needed you....and will show you everyday :)


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